Recently in Transition Category

I guess the dam broke.I hit a bottleneck around the beginning of October. Paul’s death had really made me think a lot about my life, about how short it is, and about what I really want. It made me think about what I want and then think again about what I had actually given myself permission to have. When I looked at it that way, it wasn’t as much as I thought.I’ve been writing a lot about relationships lately because this is one of the things I thought the most about. As much as I have said in the past year or so that I was ready for another serious relationship, it turns out that I was carrying around some ... more

It’s 3:50am and I’m wide awake. Because I’m on vacation. I have five days left. It will only get worse. But now that I’m on a more normal sleep schedule (for me), I’m all kinds of productive. Today I loaded up the bike on my trunk rack and took it to the shop for an overdue tune up. I took out my car radio and installed an iPod adapter. I attached picture wire to the back of a door so I can hang it on the wall after I paint something on it. And then I put on the first coat of oil ground. I hope I only need one more coat. I hate oil ground. It’s nasty, sticky, terrible ... more

Technically I should be planning a novel right now. So I’m going to write about my birthday instead. Because most of the fun of writing a novel is thinking about writing it. And then putting it off by writing something else.Yesterday I turned 41. Big. Fucking. Deal. No, really, I don’t care. As far as age goes, I’m fine with where I am in life. I’m 41 and I look, well, younger than that (although this year has definitely aged me). I’m 5’ 8” and I weigh 123 pounds. I’m in the most creative and spiritual part of my life thus far. I have the job of my dreams. In live in one of the coolest places on the planet. ... more

A few weeks ago, my web host had a power outage. Apparently nothing they had in place to prevent the disaster this would create actually worked. The hardware was hosed. My site was obliterated and so was my blog. So I figured that was a pretty good excuse to start over. After a few days spent re-uploading all my entries from Google cache, I started a redesign. I also reorganized my categories to better reflect the path this blog has actually taken over the years.I started without any idea of how the blog should look. All I knew was that I had been looking at the same design since 2008, when I was trying to get a job in animation. ... more

I’m starting to think that if you have no direction, perhaps it’s best that you don’t move.I’ve been posting and deleting a lot lately. I’m not sure right now where I want this blog to go. Actually I know where I would like it to go but my head is not aligned with that goal lately, and neither is my free time. I’d like it to be about my job and living in California and in-progress artwork. That last one is a challenge because I’m not going to have time for that for a while. I have ideas though, and when I get them in some visible form, they’ll show up here.I had a very frustrating and stressful weekend. There ... more