January 2012 Archives

I guess the dam broke.I hit a bottleneck around the beginning of October. Paul’s death had really made me think a lot about my life, about how short it is, and about what I really want. It made me think about what I want and then think again about what I had actually given myself permission to have. When I looked at it that way, it wasn’t as much as I thought.I’ve been writing a lot about relationships lately because this is one of the things I thought the most about. As much as I have said in the past year or so that I was ready for another serious relationship, it turns out that I was carrying around some ... more

On New Year’s Eve, I tweeted that if I wrote about that night at all, it wouldn’t be in my blog. But I do want to put down a conversation that’s been on my mind ever since that night, because at the time, it really bothered me. It bothers me less so now, and I feel like the process from there to here is worth sharing.Not only that, but I’ve been sick at home for two days with a vicious head cold and my brain is turning to mush.Simply put, I wish people would quit assuming that because I’m attractive and single and live in The Big City, that I want exactly what they want. I don’t. I never did. ... more